Ugh

Have actually not been here in months.

Hullo.

I just went for a trip around the universe. It was pretty intense.

This year has been pretty relentlessly brutal, but I’ve also had some amazing experiences. I’m actively trying to be more positive and appreciative in my life so I thought I’d make a list of all the good things that happened this year, rather than focusing on all the bad times.

• My 2nd vegan anniversary in August.
• Seeing Tool three times and Rammstein twice across the Big Day Out/Soundwave festivals.
• Going to the artist Alex Grey’s workshop, listening to him talk, and watching him paint.
• Trying DMT for the first time, having out-of-body interdimensional experiences, meeting benevolent extraterrestrial beings, and sharing in the unfathomable knowledge of the universe.
• Having magic mushrooms again for the first time since I was 15.
• Feeling for the first time in my life that I have some truly incredible friends that I’m very lucky and grateful for.
• Graduating from my Master of Forensic Mental Health degree with a GPA of 6.375 out of 7.
• Discovering Black Milk Clothing.
• Having some of the most insane sex of my life.
• Holidaying in Melbourne twice with my partner and exploring the city with him.
• Having time to read for pleasure.
• Finally feeling happy with my body, and feeling more comfortable with my style and identity.
• Getting rid of my black hair, and working towards going blonde.
• My sister and I becoming much closer, and relying on each other more.
• Finally getting my tattoos started.
• The wonderful impact on my life that my ratties have had on me - I feel like they’ve taught me what true unconditional love is.
• Taking responsibility for my mental health, and finally getting help to get my problems under control.

Looking over this list makes me feel super content and happy. It’s so much better to focus on all the positive things. Here’s to an amazing 2012.

Because I’m a charming bitch.

She managed to keep those lashes on for the whole festival, despite rain and us moshing like fucked up epileptic fish. What a legend.

Soundwave 2012, my inner 14 year old self can die happy now.

Om nom nom deleeeshus skin peelings

Haha Guy Fawkes mask in background.

Shutters closing.

(Source: danemartin, via medicinals)

You walk past someone you dated for 4 years and they don’t even recognise you.

In stonemason’s glass, at the bottom of my heart’s well.
At times, I draw it out to observe,
And watch what you once had wither.

I anticipate,
That when this hostage no longer entertains,
I shall smash your mottled jar into the dirt
And watch your pride leak away as blackened mud.

Dermal anchor scar.

C’est moi

(Source: cskasper, via mentallysexed)

(Source: beaten-leather, via mermaiderotica)